I'm an emotional spender. My concepts around money revolve around handing over a plastic card and hoping I did my finances right (in my head). Most of the time getting right, sometimes, not so much. A year ago, I couldn't make it through a week without buying something... while that makes for some interesting blogging, it's not really good for my financial status.
The past few months I've been purging clothes I don't like anymore, it felt like all that spending was such a waste. I knew I was trying to fill a hole in my soul with clothes, and the clothes I was filling it with were cheap and poorly made.
Right now, I'm looking for dresses. Really, what I want is a handmade dress gorgeous ruffles. There seems to be so much thought that goes into what I chose to buy, how much money something I want actually costs. It's hard to separate some issues, like do I want it because of the brand name? Do I want it because it's of the moment? And, does it reflect my personality? My values?
Do I love it? Can I wear this dress during the day? On my bike? Do I love it?
Lately, I've been reading a lot about 'emotional spending' how to curb it, how to control yourself, etc. I feel that a lot of financial information is rather logical and doesn't really make sense to me. I don't see why emotions have to be curbed.
Oh yeah... I have to get my finances in order.
So right now, I'm in progress of becoming a financially sufficient woman. It's hard because I really wasn't taught how to manage my finances, and as a creative, numbers are hard to visualize.
I'm trying.
By translating or personalizing information I learn about finances, trying to put things in perspective so I care, right now. Not spending hundreds of dollars of month of cheap bits and pieces I think I have to have, and holding on to it, enables me to find something that I really love. Something I can use in my daily life. I'm finding that if I keep going back to a certain dress, and imagining the ways it would fit in my wardrobe probably means it's my style, since I keep fantasizing, I probably love it.
And if it doesn't cost too much, I can probably have it.
1. Drunk Circus Dress, $175 • 2. Look at me, $160 • 3. June Dress, $142